Dance With Me Oh Universe ;)


Matt Kahn: Fly on the Wall💘 Cracking me open Spiritually & Energetically; not to mention crackin’ me up as well, hilariously spot on – I love a man who has no qualms about being silly. Goofy Rocks!

My ever expanding Consciousness knows no bounds 😉

Are you in a rut? It’s a growth period!

I used to be, but I got myself out of it, & so can you. There were too many hardships, challenges & traumas; I had so much buried inside; it was too much, I squished down, down, down – it took years to unwrap it all & deal with it. Let alone heal.

The healing part – that is ongoing.

Watch ‘The End of Victimhood’ & take your power back!

There are so many juicy golden nuggets jam packed in every single one of his vids. So much resonates – I learn so much, so fast. They’ve all helped me discover fixes to things I didn’t even know I was struggling with. He sets off a constant stream of fireworks in my Consciousness, as I either finally understand something I took a long time fully comprehending, revisit something on a much deeper level, or the need to understand disappears altogether.

With Matt, I make sure I have a pad of paper & a pen & a device to record video. Lessons, epiphanies, & synchronicities are off the charts.


It’s been quite the journey. And it continues to be. And I just observe. Observing my energy; where does it want me to go? Where will it take me, what does it want to show me, give me or teach me that day? I observe where it’s drawn. Everyday an adventure. Not attached to anything, no expectations, no need for any thing.

Content in this mystical, ethereal, exquisite dance with the Universe.

I get so inspired, & then must create, give back 🙂 I’ve enjoyed such an increase of laughter, of joy in my life ever since 🤣

Personal Freedom! Along with the therapy & healing blogging provides – I can incorporate my wacky sense of humor, ‘goofy-ness’ & ‘corny-ness’ into my story-telling; wanting to entertain & make people laugh for as long as I can remember 😉 Always crackin’ myself up, I became a nonstop smile factory; when you become your own best friend, a win-win 😉


Not only are you going to get through it – but you’ll come outta the other side shining 😉

For as long as I can remember, I’ve kept a collection of go-to tearjerkers. Once a month, I have a really good cry. And I go all out. I bawl like a baby. It’s great to have a good cry – it gets all that ‘gunk’ out.

I discuss life in the eye of the tornado in my first blog attempt:

‘The Importance of Finding Yourself’


Yes it’s hard as fuck at times. It’s exhausting.

Yet it’s exhilarating. Just keep smiling 🙂

I wouldn’t trade the Spiritual Journey for anything.

I’m learning, growing & evolving, & that’s a big part of why we’re here.



The Beauty of Being Alone

How do you feel about spending time with yourself? Do you like being alone?

Do you enjoy your own company? Do you crave solitude?

Have you become your own best friend?

Or does the thought if it make you uncomfortable?


I often hear people say they don’t like being alone. They just can’t.

Every time I hear that, I think:

‘Then that’s exactly what you need to do.’

Make time for yourself, by yourself, to really connect to your Heart & Soul & make sure you’re heading in the direction you want to go. We make a plan for a business meeting, a grocery trip, a vacation.  But how many people have a plan for their life? How many people’s lives are going in the direction they want? Now I’m not talking about planning every second – that would eliminate the spontaneity of life, the being open to what comes up in each moment part of life. But a plan to make sure you’re heading in the direction you want to go in is a great tool to get you where you need to be. And of course, a To Do list. Put your goals on paper. If you want to achieve them that is 😉

A Harvard Business study revealed remarkable statistics relating to goal setting and success: (Source article: )

  • 83% of the population does not have goals.
  • 14% have a plan in mind, but are unwritten goals.
  • 3% have goals written down


Being alone helped me find myself; create myself. Figure out who I am & who I want to be, without any outside influences. Many people live their lives for others; their parents, their partner, their family, their job, etc.

We need less clones & more originals 🙂


Tune into the greatness that is you – discover your gifts & share them with the world! Become your own best friend ☮💕wp-1489024874483.jpg


-Gary Zukav, author of “The Seat of the Soul”, an amazing book!



Are You Awake?

Are You Awake?

I’ve curiously & excitedly watched the veil chip away–gradually at first, then really accelerating, especially in the last 2 years. The decaying, disintegrating layers & illusions-houses of cards crumbling down; down to real, authentic, true. It’s simultaneously the hardest, yet most rewarding & most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen / felt / experienced. Over & over & over again, with every lesson, every epiphany. This meme is the most accurate description of my journey so far, cracks me up so much 🙂challengesgrowth

The school of Universal Enlightenment, aka the Universe (I’ve been referring to myself as a ‘Student of the Universe’ for about 15 years), where some lessons & levels you breeze through, others, not so much. ‘Earth School’ is what Dolores Cannon referred to this planet as. It’s definitely been that for me! And the rabbit hole goes as deep & far as you want it to .. With certain lessons I’m super clear & advance rapidly. Sometimes I revisit something, & go to a deeper level; once in a very blue moon I spin my tires in the mud. But I don’t stay stuck for long. All part of the journey. Enjoy the good times with a smile on your face 🙂 When you master keeping that smile on your face during the bad times-well now you’re onto something


Be grateful to the Universe for the opportunities to learn, grow & evolve – aka the ‘bad times,’ & watch your life transform!  

The endless well of Love & Joy inside I’ve connected to, so deep, so rich, fuels me on my mission.

I will blog as long as I have a story to tell, about my journey, if it can help one Soul. I’ve come so far, so much has been revealed; I can’t sit quietly & turn a blind eye when I see people suffering through something I was able to overcome. Sometimes I feel there can’t possibly be much veil left – instantly my awareness tugs at me – there is always more to learn / know / see / experience – there is no limit to how deep down the rabbit hole you can go. Actually, maybe ONE – You. You will only go as far as what you tell yourself exists or is possible.

Every Soul must face themselves, heal themselves. Go to the pain. The more of us that wake up, the faster we get there as a whole as we energetically raise the vibration of the collective. When we’ve all done the work, healed, learned, grew, evolved, & operate from the endless well of Love, Peace, Joy, Harmony & Unity – the world will know Peace; if we’re still on this planet when that arrives – will Mother Earth be able to sustain us for however long that takes?


Self-hypnosis! This quote is on a magnet on my fridge, eye-level, so it is infused into my conscious & sub-conscious mind on a daily basis.

One of my favorite quotes – such an important truth/lesson for me. A real gem. This one was KEY. This wisdom is of fundamental, foundational importance in my spiritual journey, my growth, enlightenment & Soul Evolution.  And so much else stemmed from this! Fully understanding the depth of it, made me also realize it’s utter simplicity. The simplicity of it all is so intensely mind-boggling. It’s so simple I can barely explain it 😉


An orchestra playing a symphony of Beauty, Love, Peace, Harmony, Unity, Energies, Frequencies, Vibrations – like pieces of a puzzle that effortlessly fit together; like magnets, drawn to where they belong, falling into place. Revealing a mysterious, elegantly intriguing, witty, clever, pulse of life energy that is the universe, or multiverse, or the creator of all of the above.

All done from a place of Love & non-judgement; so focused on teaching you lessons so you can grow. So much kindness, so much love. Learn, Grow, Evolve. All my life I’ve believed anything was possible. Why not?! Why? BECAUSE I CAN. I decide. I choose. Doing so opened up all possibilities. What a world I see! That’s a big point of why we’re here. I feel I can help speed it up for others by helping more people truly grasp this – perhaps the world wouldn’t be in such a state of disarray.  It won’t always be, don’t worry 😉trust

The good, makes life great. The bad will make life BETTER.


QUESTION EVERYTHING. Never lose your childlike sense of wonder 🙂




Dreams, Lucid Dreaming & OBE’s

I believe the mere fact we dream proves there is more than just the physical world!


First Lucid Dreaming Technique to be Independantly Verified


I have the craziest dreams. Very vivid. Never a dull moment. For the 14 years I ‘abstained’ from the Caribbean due to trying to put myself back together after being tossed around, stepped on & spit on by life – that’s putting it mildly – I continuously dreamt of being there, being on vacation, but it was always my last day. And I forgot to go to the beach. I’m freaking out. “How could you forget to go to the beach ?! It’s the whole reason you’re here!!” It’s an awful feeling of helplessness cuz there’s nothing I can do, & complete incomprehension as to how that is even possible, without even consciously considering that that would absolutely not be possible. In ‘real life’ that would NEVER happen. The minute I get to my resort, I’m at the beach.

When dreaming, I never realize I’m dreaming. There’s no question – when I’m in a dream, I think that THAT is reality, that I am awake, going about my day. Even when certain things make no sense, I don’t even realize – until, that is, I finally had my first Lucid Dream. Every single time – while in a dream – I believe that that is reality. It never occurs to me that maybe I’m dreaming. I don’t even consider for a sec that it might not be the real reality, the one that I think is real when I’m in the state I consider is the real awake. Does that make sense to you?

I lived a Groundhog Day scenario for years in my dreams – every night I’d fall asleep & in my dream I’d be on vacation – every time I woke up in the dream it somehow my last day of vacation. I ‘d always oversleep, waking up in a panic, realizing it’s time to go back home & I totally forgot to go to the beach. The Universe, I believe, in part, was urging me to get back to Life. I was a disastrous mess for awhile after all the crap – but that was an important time – the Universe’s “Intensive Universal Training Camp of ‘Bring you to the brink of madness & then some’ Life Lessons.”


When I started really working on myself, trying to process, deal & heal from all the trauma, & became more self-aware, I realized it was a message, a strong message, that Spirit/Source/Divine/God/Whoever made us come here was trying to get my attention. Every night, for years, my Soul was longing to be back in the tropics I fell in love with on my first trip in ‘96, I just didn’t make the connection.

When I finally consciously realized what the dream was trying to tell me, the dreams finally started changing. The next time, I woke up at the beginning of my last day. It started with me being able to see the pool from my window, then the beach, progressing to me being able to get to them but not swim, etc., until I finally went in the water. That’s when I finally went on my first trip in 14 years, in 2012. That’s where I feel most at home, most in my element, in the tropics 🙂

So all of this is happening in what we call a Dream, a space &/or time that I believe, at the time, to be reality. I don’t seem to have a clue that I’m actually asleep at that moment. Or am I ?


Lucid Dreams:

Lucid Dreaming goes right up there with skydiving as the most thrilling things ever for me. I had my first & it was unbelievably incredible.

In this dream, it was a scene from my past – I was in the work building I used to work in in the 90’s – the one I left to take the Club Med job in the Caribbean. I was going about my day, walking in the hall, passing offices – but then when I approached the elevators, I noticed the fire. The elevators, the floor, the halls – the fire roared fiercely & I was looking for a way out. The stairs were blocked, we were trapped. I was in complete disbelief. I started to panic, to really freak out, sure I was going to die.

  • OMG I can’t get out
  • OMG I HAFTA get out
  • OMG this can’t be happening
  • OMG this cannot possibly be happening

With each thought I seemed to go down a rabbit hole, down the ladder of consciousness. Or is it up? Pacing, my hands on my head, I head towards a corner & crouch down behind a big recycling bin. Each thought, progressing a little more –

  • this is not happening
  • this can’t be happening
  • how is this happening

To finally –

  • maybe this is isn’t happening
  • this can’t be happening
  • maybe this isn’t real
  • this can’t be real
  • maybe I’m dreaming
  • omg maybe I’m dreaming
  • could I be dreaming
  • OMG I’m fucking dreaming !!!!!

And Pouf! There I was conscious & aware in an unconscious world. Conscious in an ‘alternate reality’ (dreaming) & finally aware that I was not in the reality that I thought was the ‘real’ reality & had never once questioned. As I sit here & write this, I think I’m awake, & not in what we consider a dream. But how do I know for sure? Maybe this state we call awake is just another dream, & what we call dream is awake? Am I asleep right now, in a dream of an alternate reality, & so on – fun trying & wrap my mind around all that.

The instant I realized omg I am dreaming, it all disappeared. Gone. It just fell away. I was safe. Still processing what this meant, what I now instantly knew, & all of what I could do with this now – I popped right back out of the dream, literally. Poof – back in my bed. I remember it clearly, I felt like I was suctioned through a suction cup.

Becoming aware in what we call our ‘waking life’, & being able to achieve a conscious state in what we call our dream state, I think just may go hand-in-hand. Similar, but different. I knew the importance of awareness in our ‘waking life’, but not of the achieving consciousness while in the ‘dream state.’


I’ve had a few of these – but that was before I knew what they were. I used to think they were just dreams – until I read about them one day & I got total body goosebumps when I realized what I experienced. My mind is saying can’t be, how is this possible mumbo jumbo & tries to dismiss it. My Heart & Soul know though. I can pull up the memory at anytime & I’m right there again in that moment. Floating – just over my bed, right over my body. It’s dark, late at night. I can see myself, down there. I’m below me. I would just float around slowly, I remember feeling like a ball. I remember gently floating around the room, I’d lightly bounce of the walls if I came close to one. Just floating without a purpose, like a bumper-car, without a driver.

Unlike my dreams, where for 40 years it never occurred to me that I even MIGHT be dreaming – one lucid dream later, & everything has changed. I now know I want to achieve a conscious state while I’m asleep & “dreaming,” & see all I’d be able to do. Manipulate space, time, space time? It’s going to take practice & focus. I have yet to have another. I know I’m at the tip of a waterfall of Beauty 🙂 I’ve had many dreams since, but I’m still oblivious in them. I’m trying to train myself to ask myself, ‘Maybe you’re asleep/dreaming right now,’ so that it might become more natural to ask myself that while I’m asleep.

With the OBE, here’s the difference: I’M FULLY CONSCIOUS! Automatically. No effort required. It’s always & only happened on nights where my body was so friggen exhausted, that it fell asleep before my mind did. Then I would feel myself floating up to the ceiling. It got very windy. I heard a very loud train. There were flashing lights, like strobes; & the Vibrations. Insane. So unbelievably intense, they scare me – they’re what has kept me from succeeding again – I become gripped with fear. I haven’t had an OBE since I became consciously aware of what they were.

Oh but with Consciousness, what one can do !! There is such an incredible well of Love, Beauty & Magic in the Universe, seen when one figures out how to see with their ‘Spirit Eyes.’ Gotta keep working on developing, stretching & expanding my Consciousness.

So I can’t help but wonder that if every night I spend 8 hours in a place I thought was ‘reality‘, how do I know I’m not asleep & dreaming this ‘reality’ right now that I think I’m awake in ..


Help Me Combat Disinformation: Here’s How

Do you enjoy making digital art, especially geared towards uplifting & helping others? It’s what I refer to as ‘Conscious Art’ – a concept I’m quite drawn to. These artists deserve recognition & then some. Check out their stories: ’20 Conscious Artists That Go Beyond the Canvas’

‘A conscious artist uses his or her craft to help & to heal, as a full expression of the rights, the wrongs, & the comedy of our everyday.’

My idea is to combat all the disinformation, propaganda & controlled opposition, while simultaneously empowering, inspiring & motivating people. I first had the idea when I was admin of a lightworkers & empaths group on facebook. Twenty of us ran the group that I saw grow from 1000 members when I first joined, to 20,000 when I decided to leave & branch out on my own. That’s when Love Infusion was born. I just wanted to infuse people with goodness, & love is my favorite thing.

In the group I introduced the idea of creating memes from lessons & wisdom people have acquired from their lives so far, to help others. But because we were counselling people who were just waking up, it didn’t quite take off in the way I had envisioned; but I do see & enjoy the handful of people I know who do. Creig Crippen is a must follow. As is Allan Ashby. And Uplifted Life from fellow Montrealer Kosta Stoyanoff.

Their insights, wisdom & love is something not to be missed. I’d like to encourage those who feel drawn to create empowering memes about your lessons, wisdoms, & truths as inspiration & encouragement & flood the internet. They’re not stopping – nor should we. We need more wise souls guiding the ones who are still lost. Will you join me?

As it stands right now, in June of 2018, there is still a great epidemic of misleading the public to advance nefarious agendas. I blog about it often, to encourage people to think for themselves & not believe everything they hear.

Well this week I caught one media outlet doing it live as they censored me for offering a different point of view. In my next blog, I’ll show you Global News’ role in the current disinformation campaign in Canada, specifically New Brunswick, with regards to the upcoming marijuana legalization. I’ll show you exactly what they do to ensure only their narrative is available for public consumption. People need to have access to ALL information, & make up their own minds. Sadly, the truth, facts, are hidden, deleted, or ‘lost’ more often than you realize. On purpose. Together we can help combat these merchants of doubt.



My copyright date for Love Infusion!
















Sometimes I Forget to Breathe: Tattoos & Mental Health

Every time I saw or heard the word “Breathe,” I noticed my body take an automatic very deep breath – like I was observing my body ‘relax itself.’

Sometimes I forget to breathe. Happens sometimes with severe anxiety & ptsd.

But my body knew better 😉

So I decided to get the word tattooed inside my left wrist, as a reminder to relax, & help combat these leftover symptoms from all the trauma.

It really helps 🙂

Sadly, there is still that lingering stigma around mental illness – which I wish was eradicated: I was once asked, “Watcha gettin’ on your other wrist – ‘Blink?'”

Hardy har har.

Just Breathe

Moral of the story:

Do watcha gotta do for yourself, don’t worry even for a sec what anyone else thinks or says!

Keep Climbing

Say What You Mean

One thing I am NOT is vague.

I don’t beat around the bush, I’d rather tell it like it is.

Mean what you say & say what you mean.

The shortcut to authenticity.





Antigua Sailing Week 2018 Festivities

Seems I booked my trip during some pretty exciting festivities that I really hope to partake in! It just so happens that it’s Antigua Sailing Week 2018!


50th Antigua Sailing week 2017
Past winners of the Lord Nelson Trophy return for the 2018 edition of Antigua Sailing Week & include Sir Hugh Bailey’s Team Rebel © Paul Wyeth/

Internationally acclaimed reggae artist, Tarrus Riley is headlining Reggae in the Park.


And every race morning at 9am, join Chase the Race with Wadadli Cats & enjoy a full day of chasing the race, sailing & partying beach side with all inclusive food and drinks!


Decisions, decisions!


Antigua: A True Caribbean Paradise ☮️

Calgon, please take me away. Five more days. Almost here 😉

🕉💞☮️ 🌅Finally🌅 ☮️💞🕉

English Harbour, Antigua

It’s time. And after one of the longest, most brutal winters I’ve lived through a really long time. Don’t I say ‘it was a brutal winter’ every winter though? It’s true, I cry inside each year from December to March. I remember the crazy winters growing up, the snow so high we couldn’t leave through the front door of our house & so cold we were skating on the iced-over streets! This one was one for the books though – we’ve been buried under snow since early December, with the -15’s hitting us from the get go. Blizzard after blizzard, with no relief – with one even announced this week – in the middle of April.


💘 I’ve been in love with the Caribbean since the first day my toes hit that sand.

And I’ve never felt more at home anywhere else. 


I’m completely mesmerized by Antigua. I cannot believe how gorgeous it is. It’s exactly how I’d picture a perfect paradise had I never seen one. And it’s gonna blow every other trip I’ve ever had right outta that turquoise oh so green water 😉

I’m not a ‘world traveler’ per se – I do travel as often as I can – I’ve pretty much just been rotating between 3 countries:

  • Cuba (Cayo Coco x 3, Cayo Guillermo x 2, Cayo Ensenachos)
  • Mexico (Cancun, Mayan Riviera, Tulum, Xel-Ha)
  • Dominican Republic (Puerto Plata, Sosua, Punta Cana x 4)

I even lived in the Caribbean for a year (during Montreal’s infamous ice storm in ’98!):

  • Eleuthera, Bahamas (Club Med bartender)
  • Providenciales (Provo), Turks & Caicos (Club Med bartender)

Happy to be ‘expanding my horizons’ this time around – a new experience helps the Soul grow 😉


To everyone, I say = TRAVEL!! It’s good for the Soul!