We are in Earth School. I’ve been referring to myself as a Student of The Universe for probably 15 yrs. That’s something I’ve known even before I knew there was something to know. Don’t take everything so seriously – if you knew how “not serious” it was you would be quite surprised. The Universe has a wicked sense of humor 😉
All while simultaneously being the most breathtakingly exquisite majestic symphony – no words exist that could accurately describe it’s perfection.

The plan was to let us think we were alone here. Just us. Just to see what we would do with our free will. It’s ridiculously simple when you figure it out. If at times things seem complicated, there might be a lesson your being taught & you’re just not getting it .. the Universe will continue to try to nudge you to teach you – a little tug of war – if you resist. Know that the lessons exist to help you grow & evolve, & whoa look out – you’ll start appreciating them! Get yourself to a state of gratitude & BAM – watch your life transform. Goodbye complicated. Hello simplicity & joy, & a permanent smile 😁


Life is the Ocean. There are waves of ups & downs – just always have your surf boards ready!  Happy in the ups, appreciative & grateful in the downs. “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” It’s so true! It’s all connecting! Unlock yourself & embark on the adventure of a lifetime.
There is beauty beyond anything you’ve ever known. And the Love – it will make you weep with such profound Joy & Bliss. I cannot wait for all to see the magic.


If you don’t see it now, it’s because you don’t believe it’s possible.

Stop limiting yourself.

“Sometimes we live our lives in chains never knowing we have the key.”

When faced with two choices, believing in nothing or believing in everything, why the heck would you choose the worst case scenario? What you think/believe becomes your reality.

Don’t waste any time worrying what anyone thinks of you. Don’t worry about a thing.


Just be love. Emanate it. Radiate it. Find what gives you goosebumps – flow with that. Flow with what resonates with you. Don’t listen with your head. FEEL WITH YOUR HEART. That’s how you KNOW something is right for you. I don’t want you to do what I do. I want you to do what you do. Create your own way.

#QuestionEverything #FindYourTruth #FollowYourHeart #Resonance
It IS all about #Energy #Frequency #Vibration

Thx #NikolaTesla Tune In. #FindYourself

Moving into Joy

There’s nothing wrong with being sad, it’s not a bad thing – I learned how good it feels to have a good cry – it’s such a release! I try to have a really good cry at least once a month – to get all of that crap out.  I keep a shelf of go-to movies – tearjerkers – & give myself a good cleansing. Out with the old & in with the new.


This is one way meditation helps. And even as I say this now, I giggle inside, that these words are actually coming out of my mouth – knowing that a year ago I would try “this meditation thing” for a whole 3 minutes – a whole 180 seconds – then get up and walk away in frustration n say fuck this crap it doesn’t work !
Glad I’m passed that. What the meditation will do for you – among many other things – is get you to that place where you are the Observer. You are not the sadness, but you are the Observer – observing the sadness. Not judging those feelings, letting them come in and letting them flow out. Meditation will help you quiet your mind.


Before Meditation, you will find yourself spending too much time in your head trying to figure things out and you won’t have balance – spend more time in your Heart and Soul – being quiet, asking the questions you want answers to and sitting silently without expectations, without judgements – the answer will come. I used to call that my “being all over the place and nowhere simultaneously mode.” I knew I had to meditate and it would help but I couldn’t quiet my mind long enough to get into it .. thank God I kept trying because I can’t even begin to describe what it has done and does for me 🙂

Remember – every second you have a choice. If you don’t like that choice that you just made, it’s okay, because oh look, here’s another now – if you screw up again it’s okay, here’s another now ..


Life is just a series of Nows strung together. It’s important to get to the mindset that it will pass – it always passes – and that is life! Things can’t be good all the time – how would we learn ? Can you imagine how bored we’d get – how much we’d complain! You’ve gotta have your Surfboard by your side at all times – waxed and ready to go. Know that this is a roller coaster – there’s going to be ups n highs .. n downs n lows …

Look at those lows as having a purpose for your growth, your evolution, your life lessons. Then when they come along you can take them a little less seriously; maybe even crack a smile – because you’ll realize you’re in a partnership with the Universe – a team – & it wants to work with you – not against you.




My Life Lessons

When I began to wake up out of the illusion, I started to look back on my life, trying to make sense of it all, connecting the dots to figure out how I got here. Around the time I took my Quantum Medicine class, I went to a Life Coaching workshop, which helped me connect more dots & make peace with the past & figure out where I wanted to go from here. We were asked to create a project which showed our journey. I drew a horizontal line, with dates, a timeline. Bad events below the line, good ones above. We also attached the color of the chakra affected/in use/present to each event. It was a very interesting project. It showed me that everything really does happen for a reason, & that even though I had an incredible number of things written below that line, it also showed me how many times I was truly Blessed. I learned to be Grateful for everything – you have to look at the hardships as lessons, because that’s what they truly are ~


The first life lessons were taught to me by Don Miguel Ruiz, in his book, ‘The Four Agreements.” I highly recommend reading any of his books, start where you feel drawn. I learned to create my own path. Don’t worry about what anybody thinks. It doesn’t matter. A lot of people might try to tell you how you should live, but they don’t know what’s really right for you, only you know what is best for you. Only you know what makes your Heart sing. Find your Passion, and do that. You’ll experience such Freedom when you no longer care what anyone thinks. It is so Liberating. My motto has always been Follow your Heart – I even tattooed it on my forearm & now the message gets to so many people That makes MY Heart sing 🙂

I learned how important Meditation is. I had such a hard time at first! I’m glad I stuck with it because I’ve had some awesomely magical experiences while meditating. It helps you stay in the Now. No more depression, much less anxiety. I love to use binaural beats, the Love Frequency 528hz, Tibetan singing bowls, chants, you should use whatever you feel drawn to. Tune into your Energy. That’s how you’ll find the answers to your most important questions. I believe if you ask the question, it’s because you are ready for the answer & you will find it within you. What you seek is seeking you 😉
I learned how necessary it is to stay in the Now. Imperative. That’s all there is. Life is a series of Nows. Grounding daily is a must. Gardening, writing, drawing, painting, crafting, sculpting, there are a number of things you can do to keep you in the Now. Try different things. You’ll be drawn to something. We must tune into our energy, it knows where it wants to go.

To Appreciate everything & be Grateful every day. What you focus on grows. Focus your attention on what you want. Create it. You choose. You decide. Live the life you dream of. Now. Make a list, a plan – when you write things down there is much more of a chance of them happening, because now you have a plan & you’re putting it out into the Universe. People plan business meetings, trips, even their grocery shopping – but how many people list out a life plan ?!
Anything is possible, if you dream it, you can do it! Every second of every minute of every day you make a choice, consciously or not, you’re making choices. Be aware of this so you can realize your potential, your power, & create the life you want.

There is ALWAYS a bright side. Find it! Can’t ? Create one ! Our reality is based on our thoughts …. on whatever we tell ourselves. Tell yourself you can’t & you won’t. Tell yourself you can & you will. It’s that easy ! Namaste sweet Souls. Now go on, create something that makes your Heart sing & your Soul dance 🙂


Painting as a Healer

When I reflect on where I am today with regards to where I used to be, how incredibly far I’ve come just amazes me. It’s been well over a decade since I escaped the eye of the tornado as I call it. There’s been so much to Heal. The amount of stress and trauma jam packed into a six year span left me with a lot to process. My nervous system was completely shot, making living and acting ‘normally’ a challenge.

It took me years and years of waking up, learning, going back to sleep, & waking up again to finally gain some wisdom and insight into what this life is all about. Ever since I was a child I always knew there was something more, that we were not here for nothing, that there was a purpose to all of this. I had hardships from the moment I was born, challenge upon challenge upon test upon lesson – I knew I was being prepared for something. I was fascinated by what I could not see, could not explain.

I loved getting into heated debates with skeptics, “Bring me a box of wind I say!” .. which they never could do .. so I would tease them & say, “Well then I guess it doesn’t exist ;)”


My curiosity led me to a Holistic school where I took “Quantum Medicine’, which basically skyrocketed my desire to further explore & pursue my Spiritual Enlightenment. With the introduction of Quantum Physics into my life, I knew  that just because we can’t see something doesn’t mean it isn’t there 🙂 During the course of this class I had what was probably the most amazing dream I have ever had. It was incredible – I met a wonderful Being, we gently floated in space high above the earth – he brought me towards another being & said ‘Look !” He began to tear off his skin piece by piece – as he did , rays and rays of gold and white light emerged, lighting up the darkness. He looked at me and said, “This is what we’re really made of. I felt how much he really wanted me to know that. He wanted me to Believe. He knew I was struggling with moving forward because believing what I believed – without being able to prove it & living in a world where being like me earns you many different kinds of labels .. which you eventually learn to ignite ..

Last year alone Physics & Quantum Physics have made some really exciting discoveries, ones that even confuse the physicists 🙂 I kind of like that .. I am beyond excited for future discoveries & want science to catch up to what I’ve felt for so long = We are so not alone.

The last trauma was a decade ago, I still had anxiety issues & occasional panic attacks, wanted it to go away. I had lived in fear for so long, I didn’t remember any other way. I struggled but had to figure out how to relax, I mean really relax.

It took Tony Horton from P90x to make me realize how I walked around with my shoulders clenched up like an accordion, stiff, stressed – I was one big knot, in constant fight or flight mode.

Then I discovered ART👩‍🎨


This was only 3 short months ago. I now barely own anything that doesn’t have a little bit of paint on it. It was a post online that had me asking myself whether or not I had a creative side. A video in which an art teacher explains that everyone has a creative side, but a lot of people seem to tell themselves they can’t draw. I laughed – my running joke – used to be “If I try to draw a blue boat it’ll look like a red house !” Always the joker 😉 The next thing I knew I was off to the dollar store to get some paint by numbers, just to see if I’d enjoy it. To my amazement, they actually had cheap canvasses, Acrylic paint & brushes lol Why not – for less than $20 I was all set.

And the rest is history. I haven’t stopped since. My mind automatically shuts off, I am present, ahhhhh the elusive corner piece !! Voila ! A whole new world has opened up. In three months I’ve worked two events at local art galleries, met one of my favorite artists from France & started doing some translation work for him. I have found my passion!

Current Lesson : Using Intuition to paint. Need to sharpen it, this well help my enlightenment as well. Finally. Healing almost complete. Just in time to commence Reiki training soon. Thank you Universe, I am eternally Grateful for all of the lessons, all of the Beauty, & yes, all of the challenges and the crap – for without them I would not have grown & evolved. Everything happens for a reason.



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