Studio Time: Acrylic Fluid Painting Trial

I’ve made a few of these in the past that turned out well; oddly that was before I even read any instructions on how to do it. So I watched a few pretty incredible ones last night. Glad I was able to quickly spot my mistakes. Learn, grow, evolve 😌

Last week I wrote about the constantly appearing Hearts in my paintings – it began not long after I started Love Infusion. And lo & behold here’s another one!

Heyyyy … look, left on the heart; I see 4 outstretched fingers – is that a little hand waving, or saying hello? Maybe for the funky gold dude (bottom-left) who seems to be reaching towards it? Mind you he could very well just be holding a fork 🤣😂 Again I over-mixed, & too much medium, paint not adhering to the canvas.

Next, ‘Wild Horses?’ Ok, ‘Wild Horse?

Same, started well but over mixed, & too much medium left bare spots; & you can see small blue clumps, bottom left – I need to take my time, really mix it properly.

And..🥁..drum roll please..🥁.. same thing here. Oopsie loll

A lot of that green kind of evaporated; too much medium, got bare spots again. But that’s what’s so awesome about abstract! You can continuously add on the spots you consider ‘ugly.’ You just keep going until you don’t see anything you consider ‘ugly‘ anymore, & Voila! You have a finished painting!

  1. Ratio of medium to paint too high, paint did not adhere in certain areas (s/b no more than 50/50)
  2. Dark blue showing a few small random clumps – didn’t mix it enough. Signs of impatience? What, moi??🙈😌
  3. Red & blue? Definitely not the colors I should put together for this – the purple went gray in some areas & looked awful

I’m off to my studio. Round 2 & these learned lessons. More paint⬆️ Less medium⬇️

Try! Believe in Yourself! You can do absolutely anything if you tell yourself you can. But continue to say you can’twithout ever trying – & you never will🕉

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Just ‘business as usual‘ for these guys. Buh bye free speech – hello censorship. Why would they silence people who are wrong? They wouldn’t. We aren’t as off base as they want the world to believe though. It’s all trickery. They cheat because they have nothing. God forbid they keep it a level playing ground. If we were uttering nothing but nonsense & gibberish, we’d be ignored. But alas, we are not, are we? We’re being erased instead.

Equally as disappointing: the ‘Disinformation Duo’ of Ellen DeGeneres & Whoopi Goldberg. Their ‘nails-on-a-chalkboard’ blatantly transparent & predictable denial of the existence of the deep state was patheticly transparen. Don’t they sign your paychecks – cuz that sounded exactly like what all the bought-&-paid-for puppets echoing narratives spew. Their followers better not think for themselves or else! As is the trend, they’ll ridicule the pants of of you. Obey or else is their new old motto.

All media is owned by the same few people – and they’ve been spinning us around for quite some time .. like when Ellen ridiculed those who dared suggest ‘Alexa’ might be eavesdropping .. when .. Ummm .. Alexa is always listening; that’s not kinda the point that’s the whole point.

Everyone has the right to express their opinion, but to discourage her millions of followers from researching, & ridiculing those dared stray from the herd’s scripted narrative .. a great example of their one-play-gamebook – the spin.

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Just trying to be funny? I thought I remembered her at a time encouraging learning & growth – but I got a totally different vibe this time. Whoopi is definitely the more unhinged one in that duo. The way she treated Jeanine Pirro – a great example of their inability to be civil & have a discussion, no matter what side of whatever fence you choose to stand behind. We don’t have to agree with what someone is saying – but we need to start respecting their right to say it.

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ALL mainstream media : THE BIGGEST pushers of Propaganda & Disinformation – and they do this all while accusing, harrassing & attacking anyone who gets too close to the truth & accusing THEM of being the actual propaganda & disinfo pushers. It’s classic Projection & Gaslighting. Damn CIA & their mind-control. People are just too brainwashed to notice. 


October Reset

Alright, it’s time for a big ‘what am I doing’ reality check.

Last night I realized I’m further behind than when I started loll

I finally admitted to myself that I can’t move forward as half-assed as I currently am. Or was.

Did I bite off more than I can chew; well I was definitely not as prepared as I should have been in launching my company or my podcast. It’s mostly the ol’ patience, with his predictably lazy pal procrastination rearing their ugly heads at me again.

But my biggest problem – even more so than the aforementioned p&p – in an honest first-time-said-out-loud admission to myself:

Holy crap I am by far the most disorganized person I have ever known. It’s unbelievable! 🐮

Gotta call myself out, being brutally honest – time to put my big girl pants on & start over from scratch. So, September 30 you’re the final page in that chapter. Clean Slate.

Fresh start 😏 Start over as many times as you need to.

You know you spend way too much time on the miniscule screen of your phone when you finally take a look at what you deemed sellable work – only to discover that most of what I thought was awesome, really sucks on a computer screen when blown up.

I must admit, pathetically – I never even bothered to take the time to see if what I had chosen would in fact look just as good when blown up to print or poster size.

Just had to go, go, go –

Sure it kept me busy; but busy frazzled, not busy accomplishing as I should have been👶🤖👶

Launched April 20 – 6 months later I’m still “trying to get organized.”

🤩🐾😏🐾🙄🐾😅🐾🤣🐾😋🐾😉 🐘

I’ll only be efficient, productive & naturally more professional, once I learn how to get organized, & it’s ok that I don’t know how right now.

There’s no “I Can’t.”

There’s only “I Presently Struggle With.”

Ready, set, Reset.

Time to take it down a notch,

& time to take it up a notch.


Just For Laughs: Strange Bedfellows

I’m definitely passing on the next Just For Laughs Festival.

How ’bout you?

Dance With Me Oh Universe ;)

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Matt Kahn: Fly on the Wall💘 Cracking me open Spiritually & Energetically; not to mention crackin’ me up as well, hilariously spot on – I love a man who has no qualms about being silly. Goofy Rocks!

My ever expanding Consciousness knows no bounds 😉

Are you in a rut? It’s a growth period!

I used to be, but I got myself out of it, & so can you. There were too many hardships, challenges & traumas; I had so much buried inside; it was too much, I squished down, down, down – it took years to unwrap it all & deal with it. Let alone heal.

The healing part – that is ongoing.

Watch ‘The End of Victimhood’ & take your power back!

There are so many juicy golden nuggets jam packed in every single one of his vids. So much resonates – I learn so much, so fast. They’ve all helped me discover fixes to things I didn’t even know I was struggling with. He sets off a constant stream of fireworks in my Consciousness, as I either finally understand something I took a long time fully comprehending, revisit something on a much deeper level, or the need to understand disappears altogether.

With Matt, I make sure I have a pad of paper & a pen & a device to record video. Lessons, epiphanies, & synchronicities are off the charts.

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It’s been quite the journey. And it continues to be. And I just observe. Observing my energy; where does it want me to go? Where will it take me, what does it want to show me, give me or teach me that day? I observe where it’s drawn. Everyday an adventure. Not attached to anything, no expectations, no need for any thing.

Content in this mystical, ethereal, exquisite dance with the Universe.

I get so inspired, & then must create, give back 🙂 I’ve enjoyed such an increase of laughter, of joy in my life ever since 🤣

Personal Freedom! Along with the therapy & healing blogging provides – I can incorporate my wacky sense of humor, ‘goofy-ness’ & ‘corny-ness’ into my story-telling; wanting to entertain & make people laugh for as long as I can remember 😉 Always crackin’ myself up, I became a nonstop smile factory; when you become your own best friend, a win-win 😉

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Not only are you going to get through it – but you’ll come outta the other side shining 😉

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For as long as I can remember, I’ve kept a collection of go-to tearjerkers. Once a month, I have a really good cry. And I go all out. I bawl like a baby. It’s great to have a good cry – it gets all that ‘gunk’ out.

I discuss life in the eye of the tornado in my first blog attempt:

‘The Importance of Finding Yourself’

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Yes it’s hard as fuck at times. It’s exhausting.

Yet it’s exhilarating. Just keep smiling 🙂

I wouldn’t trade the Spiritual Journey for anything.

I’m learning, growing & evolving, & that’s a big part of why we’re here.

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Sunday Soul Search

A day late..was an eventful one yesterday 😉 Peace 🎶🧘‍♀️🎶

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Let’s Be Better Humans

If there’s an ‘after’- great, we’ll🌟Rock On🌟in a new better place. If there’s nothing, then there’s nothing & we won’t know so f*ck it.

Let’s not waste time arguing who’s right. Live every day like you’re the King or Queen of your own castle & treasure yourself, every moment, every person.

YOU 💖 are a gift to the world. You have so much to give & you can tap into that endless well – it resides inside you. Become aware of its’ existence, & you’ll access it as you start to develop your self-awareness, with self-reflection🙋‍♀️ Start with meditation, yoga, gardening or painting & learn to relax & breathe.

Stop putting yourself down – observe your self talk, & gently remind yourself .. it’s just a matter of retraining your mind into positivity. I used to be the hardest person on myself & then I became my own best friend.

We don’t say “I can’t”

We say “I presently struggle with.”

(Tony Horton-p90x)
You may very well be unknowingly self-sabotaging yourself. So many people still don’t realize how much power their thoughts have, at all. It’s time to start paying attention. Grab the reins of your life & holler a big ol’ giddy up, vamos!

🔥 I wanna light a fire under your ass 🔥

It’s all about the way you look at things & what you tell yourself – about the world, about yourself .. everything. I cannot stress enough the incredible importance of that.

How about a little anecdote as an example? 🎊Meet Mary & Jim:

Jim was transferred to another state for work & they were invited for happy hour drinks that first Friday by a few colleagues & his boss to get acquainted. Mary – although she’s a little shy & a bit out of her comfort zone – agreed.

At home that afternoon, Jim opened a bottle of wine, put on some happy jazz, & whistled while he prepared for the evening. He was excited for this new chapter & he was going all-in – no stress, no worries, no expectations. Jim’s always been a carefree man & knows it’s all good 🙂

Taking “it” as “it” comes, allowing “it” to be whatever “it” is rather than what he imagined, hoped or feared it would be.

We don’t react – we respond.

Respond

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Mary on the other hand, had low self-esteem & was often in doubt; told herself she “probably can’t” so ‘why even try.’ As she tried her best to get into a chipper mood, nervous about meeting other, new women, swatted away negative thoughts, coming at her, like flies to a forgotten picnic food plate in the park on a scorching July aft.

  • they won’t like me
  • they’ll find me boring
  • what if they ignore me
  • what if ….. gorgeous
  • …. rich
  • …. thin
  • & all else that is “better” than you
  • what if she’s a real bitch
  • Etc.

Mary, with her Rolodex of preconceived notions, her premature negative view; due to a lack of believing in herself & that she is enough – she forges head.

She meets the ladies – already having decided how & who they were before ever even seeing them. Never giving them a chance to maybe (probably?) prove otherwise. Therefore never ever seeing them as they truly are.

You can be in a room with someone, chatting away, but (imo) if they aren’t on the road to awakening & working on becoming their most authentic selves, they won’t/don’t see you for who YOU are. They can only see what THEY are.

Make sense?

Remember the movie ‘PS I Love You?’ When we realized we waste time on stupid, small stuff we weren’t supposed to sweat, & completely irrelevant compared to somebody we love?

That if we had a second chance we would never take anyone for granted & always appreciate every moment we were lucky enough to spend in their company?

We have to remember stuff like that when we’re fighting over nonsense like straws or the last nikes or iphone on black friday as people literally trample each other to death – for a thing.

We have lost our way as human beings.

So many have lost their way cuz they’ve been led astray. It’s up to the awake to guide them – kindly & with much empathy.

It took me a long time to realize & learn that it is hurt people that hurt people, we must be kinder to the lost the confused & the misguided.

I think of people like John Lennon who lost their lives trying to get us all to peace & to love each other 💖 They can’t silence all of us – don’t let them silence any more of us.

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Podcast: I Like Q – Here’s Why

Broadcasting my two cents through the Podwaves 🎶🎙🎶

Quick food for thought first:

If you call me a purple unicorn, will I try to destroy you? No of course not, cuz I’m not secretly a purple unicorn. See where I’m going with this ..

No one would waste all that time, energy & money, calling up all their friends & coordinating a simultaneous gang attack on discrediting something that either isn’t true or can’t hurt them.

Check out my podcast, Or Maybe .. it’s Disinformation., on Anchor: https://anchor.fm/love-infusion

The Shuffle

A plan for every man

Who lives on earth

An invisible prison

Trapped since birth

The strings aren’t seen

By the naked eye

Struggle every day

Tryin’ to get by

Go to work

Pay the bills

Just enough for basics

Not enough for frills

Workin’ for decades

Need a chance to chill

A constant climb

Uphill

No time

Can’t stand still

A matter of will

Gotta dig outta this rut

Keep going no matter what.

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